i super super super sad now...)": coz of that jeslinda.AGAIN.she just bloody keep forcing me to ask debbie shut up just becoz of their own personal problems.is not like debbie not my friend like that.you expect me to scold my friend just becoz of your own personal problem?i am like the middle person lah.why always me?both of you are my friends.why your have to force me?i am also a human being,jeslinda.my world do not only revoles around you.so what if you are my friend?so what if you are really that important to me?debbie is also important to me.she is also my friend,my good friend.i know i cant afford to quarral with you anymore and i cant afford to lose such a friend like you anymore but...you are really giving me lots of stress.do you really thinks that N.A no stress?zhong hua N.A study the same thing as express okay?what makes you think that i dun have stress from you?always forcing me to interfer with the things in between you and debbie.)": hey darling,even if i am an alien,i also need to breathe de okay?maybe we really is not suitable to be friends.i was actually still looking forward towards tml de lei.at least its the first day i see you after we quarral and was okay again.nvm.i knew this would happened le.nvm.haix.mid year exam coming soon.i wanna pass everything.i must study like slave now le.jia you ppls.althought my mood is super affected,but i still have to balance my shooting,council and studies well.if not i will die badly.i will kill myself one day if i am really under stress.hiax.my life once use to be very free,compared to now,one person turned my world upside down.stupid jackass.i gonna slap myself everyday before i study or whatever.kill myself one day is my wish now.hope that my wish will come true one day.)": my life is really miserable if she dun gets happy...smile please...)":
Monday, March 24, 2008
{'haha...i am quite an emo kid actually...' }
hey.haha.corrina,yeah i am actually quite emo de lah.just that i am not really that emo in primary school nia...ya lah.nvm de lah.haha.coz of one person mah.BUT!i am not so emo until i will cut myself that type.althought tried before.for fun.haha.=)i am mad lah seriously.i am still listening to tears drop on my guitar.lol.i am crazy over this song now.super nice lah.shoooting having NYT compition soon.not really interested in getting into NYT even if i can.haha.haix.ppl like me can enter meh?i dun think so.since i am also not interested.it doesnt matter much too much to me anyway.someone badly affected me this few days.keep on seeing someone that i dun really wanna meet.groan super loud today coz i saw that person.i was like what the hell...the more i dun wanna see that person then that person appears more in front of me.i am mad lah.she was the one whoo turn me more emo in sec school anyway.ahaha.shiling also an emo kid.at least she is one in everybody's eye.haha.except for dancing.thats the only time when we can see her eally enjoying herself.haha.haix.yeah..didnt really get alot of sleep this few days.i just hope that i dun really see that person so often anymore.if not i will crazy and stand in the middle of the road and let the car go over me.thats the best.i am an emo kid seriously...
Friday, March 21, 2008
{'i waited and waited today,but she didn't appear...i was so sad...=(for no good reason...' }
today i waited for a person to appear...but the person didn't.i was sad.for no good reason.haix.why?i also dunno.until now,i am still waiting for that person.now is already 12.57am.i am watching bullfighting to kill my time.i dunno why i spent so much time in waiting that person today.am i too free?tsk tsk.=(super sad.maybe i am crazy.and abit nuts.nvm.i am such a stupid person.that person made me feel so stupid indeed.today's moon was really big.really nice.but one person looking at the moon make me feel like crying.i felt that i am like a loner.whatever.i am one actually.haha.i am just so pathetic.but nvm.i should get use to it.i dun care.loner.i am.tears soon will fall out of my eyes.should i stop my tears?i dunno.maybe i shouldn't.really...i am tired waiting for her.i should give up,shouldn't i?i wanna die.nope!i shouldn;t give up!!!i should continue to wait for her.now 1.24am.i am listening to a song by taylor swift;tearsdrop on my guitar.its s nice song.but i feel more lonely.nvm.i must jia you.maybe that person will realise that i am doing all these for that person.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
{'whatever...sad lah...aiyo...dunno how to explain now...' }
lol...very long never post le.about 5 days i guess.haix...what to write lei?seriously nothing much happened.just that i got CWO on tuesday if i am not wrong.my whole class gotta clear the bloody field within 15mins.obvisely it wont be clear enough can?!but coz of one guy in my class the whole class gotta do the stupid CWO.lol.--lll.yesterday my form teacher told our class to prepare for another CWO again.coz we are having literture.and the boys will denfinately play afool monkey around the class,then my literture teacher will confirm be extremely furious lah.then she will chase my classmate out of my class and everyone!TIME FOR CWO!!!lol.stupid asshole benjamin make sure you keep your mouth shut k?before everyone smack you up.nvm.irrating jackass.haix...went to fiona house on wednesday.with wei qian and my sec school schoolmate.study eat play.like that only loh.then i borrow fiona's laptop.i actually wanted to post my blog and MSN de lah.then half way through when i was talking with jeslinda and hui xin the com black out.haha.lol.nvm.forget it.emm...this few days my council job was still fine.i am still under P.A i guess.but my job is side gate now.i am suppose to catch those who has no name tag,ankle shoes,head phone around thier neck that type loh.lol.i caught camilla yesterday without nametag.haha.then she give me that type of lj face.so funny!!!=)but it was rather exhausting too.early early must be there le.so must go out early.but it fun with my friend there.we talk about things after that.sit there and wait.whatever~k lah.i also nothing to post about le.haix.k lah.bye bye.i am gonna do my other stuff le.miss me ba.dunno next post will be when.sorry.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
{'council camp was super fun!i love it!=)' }
i just ended my council camp yesterday.it was SUPER fun lah!then is like there are so many games can?!so bloody fun.we must thx bianca and jia yi for setting so fun games.i had learn a new food cheer on my council camp.it goes like this,'i say zhong hua you say eh you say eh you say eh,i say zhong hua you say ba you say ba you say ba,i say zhong hua you say eh,i say zhong hua you say ba,i say zhongnhua you say ehhhhh ba!'haha.lol.it sound abit weird lah,but its nice.at least nice to me.then we got night tour.WOW!i tell you,its SUPER BLOODY FUN!shi yuan phyllis valerie they all pretended to be ghost,lol.but i only can say that phyllis is very very very very very scary~lots of girls were freak out by her lah.lan eh.then alot of girls,including my group of girls,back out.coz of PHYLLIS.super scary lah~then she was like threw the ball at us then the sound that the ball made was so scary...then she pointed at the ball.btw,when we walk up the stairs,they both were singing.and its very soft plus it scary.then after the ball dropped down,she pointed at it.we picked up the ball and i threw it towards her.then she was like never catch lah.then shiling(she was in my group)say that we are suppose to pass her the ball personally.but no one dare.then shiling said that such a waste of time then she just took the ball and pass it to phylllis.then phyllis told us something that made everyone freaked out so bloody badly.she said she wanted to play hide and seek with us.then we were all like huh?what to do next?then everyone just stood there not moving.then i asked phyllis are we suppose to hide and she come and find us.then she said yes.then we all were like saying oh my god.we still didnt moved.then phyllis came down instead.we all moved back a step then we all shouted and we all turn and ran.haha.then i shouted so damn bloody loud in the hall lah.the hall is extremely dark lah.then we have to walk towards the grand piano.the piano was so scary but its so extreme obvious that there is ppl under it.coz their head can be seen.and very obvious that its shi yuan who suddenely came out from the piano lah.coz we all can recognize her watch.haha.lol.but we didnt finish everything lah.coz no time and we all freak out already.so..ya.you know.somemore at that time is already 11.00pm le.and we haven bathe yet.so the game just ended like that loh.and after this night tour,so many girls were freak out by phyllis i suppose,all didnt bathe.but i did bathe lah.but its so extreme fast lah.haha.=)but the whole day was nice.then the second day,we play a three min relay.the whole of the council group have to play.there are 17 ststions if i am not wrong lah.then we all are suppose to finish all 17 stations within three min.my job was to piggy back my team mate.and i was laughing all the way.haha.lol.very tired de hor.=)haha.like that loh.we completed it within 6min and 10 sec.yay!=)cheer!!!!very good!!!!!!!!!everyone put in effort and at least this game bond us together.all thx to bianca.and everyone.i just love this camp.we also attend lots of talks.grooming session.banner making.hall deco.lots.nvm.they are great.really.i highly apperiate the EXCO members for their effort.i love you all!=)mucks.and of course!my group 'ANYTHING'!thats my group name.yeah..my group was like super united!bianca awarded my group 10points for my group for our team work.haha.yay!good right?haha.my group was the only group that get the 10 points for team work.haha.k lah.ling en is here at my house now.we going to bake muffins now lei.i love my group.haha.and we are suppose to gather at the parade square on monday 7.10am.lol.=)
Monday, March 10, 2008
{'got a bloody shock coz of TAN HUI XIN!!!=P' }
bloody...tan hui xin...you hor.make me so damn shock lah!=Pyou hor.forever giving me shock de lei...you are just so...CUTE!yeah..thats the only word to describe you.haha.you hor,so cute ah!you die liao.make me shock like hell!i will...make sure i will make sure you will suffer~muhahahahaha!yeah..prepare to suffer on monday!=Pdun even think of running away on monday when school re-open arh...haha.dun forget i have shooting~i am taking the same bus and train as you...haha!so evil of me~like you did something that really shocked me like that.haha.=ptoday was such a bad day for me.woke up at 9.45am coz of jia en.this few days she kept on asking me question so early in the morning about shooting can?but i dun mind.just that my beauty sleep is being disturb by her.haha.nvm.tml still got bloody F & C in school for shooting club.so kns lah.dun feel like going.unless someone cheer for me.haha.lol.if tml really got ppl show u after reading this post,i will be so bloody touched.i will hug that person like xiao lah.but not when i am sweaty.haha.you know~yeah..tml going to catch a movie at bugis.then i actually wanna jio jeslinda out but i know she is so damn angry with me so not possible lah.then the next person i think of is valerie.she so damn cute lah.make me think of her so much.haha.as a senior nia k?not les!=pnow trying to get juliana to help me get hui xin blog.to scare her too.haha.i am just so evil.i have a devil that is living deep in my heart.but is not that really that evil until like a vain lah.that ang mo so gross lah.keep asking for my pic...bloodly.i blocked him le.and deleted him off my contact le.ha sucker~=Pthey suck~i dun give them any damn by the way.and...i wanna say something to somebody:i love you.and i am sorry if i never tell you i love you.just that i am afraid that we might not be able to even be friend le.i am rally sorry to keep you in the dark.if one day i find it that its the time for me to say out that i love you,i will.but not now.i am afraid.but i only wan you to know,i will always be beside you if you need me.just give me a call on my phone or just a simple msg that show me that you are sad,i will give you a call or reply you back to console you.coz i wan you to know that at least i love you.so deeply in my heart...stay happy always.dun be moody~i love you.
Friday, March 7, 2008
{'stupid ang mo...' }
this few days,i have being getting all this stupid ang mo sending me adding me when i dun ever know them can?!they all keep on asking me to let them see me nakeD!fuck their mum lah!i told one of them that i am from korea and my father is an american while my mum is a korean.haha.serve him right!got one stupid ang mo say he wanna sex with me.knn.lucly i never tell him my real name i told him my name is darva and i am 19.haha.he was fooled by me.after that i just scolded him and block plus deleted his contact.fucker.if any of you recieve such things,dun care them.just make sure you delete plus block them off k?expecially girls.must be careful.never ever let your information leak out.dun tell them your real name or age.they all only want you to send them your video naked and porn pictures.dun be so naive and just do what they tell you okay?=)k lah.thats all for now.good night.remember what i say okay?
{'tsk tsk...hurt her so badly...' }
now i am at my buddy house...debbie ngo pei shan...keke...nvm.your dun even know her.sze ping also here...she just so cute!haha.by the way,today nothing much happened!oh!by the way alicia!happy birthday!!!i give you the birthday present on council camp can?psps...benjamin still own me money now.so i buy you the present as soon as possible...and i am sorry that i cant attend your party on wednesday.but i will ask ken to go loh...heard that you and seo rin okay liao right?thats great...haha...=)today was such a bad day...got bloody literture test essay writting.so bloodly difficult loh...arh!!!write until half then suddenly fall asleep...haha!!!so funny.i think i cannot think that i can pass loh..i think i got a little out off point loh...=(sad...sob sob...today i did something horrible to jeslinda again loh...haix...i go tell her something horrrible again...huh...how???so terrible...i was like so sad lah!=(its just like on matter how i do i still cannot ease her heart...haix...jeslinda dun sad le...i am sorry...you can talk to me if you are sad...about debbie...you know...its not that i dun care about you its just that i am angry that you like to hurt yourself...you know...yeah...hmm...sorry...
Thursday, March 6, 2008
{'hiax...so tired...' }
lolz...i now damn bloody guai lan...and angry with myself for saying such hurtful words to jeslinda...arh!!!i did a damn kns mistake loh!=(is like i go tell jeslinda that i dun ever care about what she gonna do to herself loh.i go say to her,"what can you do to me?!call vinnette?tell debbie?cut yourself or wanna cry again?i dun care at all loh.you use pen knife or scissors cut yourself i also dun care you can?!you need chopper?i have a very sharp chopper at home lei!you need it or not?i can lend you lei!"i so sad and i regretted saying that to jeslinda...i dun care if she feel hurt or not but all i know is that i am too much...aiya...so du lan now loh...how toy solve this problem???and i suddenly find myself so childish for something i said...i go tell debbie to tell jeslinda that i dun wanna be friend with her...its like what the fuck lah...like that also can arh???i super childish lah!say all this stupid things to hurt her...bloodly angry with myself...i dun ever know how am i gonna have my bloodly shitty literture essay test!somemore same paper as express.why zhong hua standard so high?N.A also study so hard...but its good...at least i can know more...thats what i am grateful for...jeslinda so sorry that i hurt you if i did...i wasnt on purpose just that i was really angry with you that you say you wanted to cut yourself again.its not that i dun care its just that i really dunno what to say to stop you...=(if i could stop you i wont have said that le...i am really sorry about it if i really hurt you...coz i just realised the grave mistake i made...its the bigggest mistake that i have ever made,to you.i shouldnt have shout at you or neither should i have tell you to cut yourself...really...if you dun forgive me,it doesnt matter,just that i wanna tell you be happy must eat your lunch or dinner k?dun skip it anymore....later like kast time you stomach ache...and you really look cuter with your hair band on...keke...remember it okay?tsk tsk...today long preformed during recess.he played and sing with his guitor...he was great...yeah...hmm...it should be...at least to me...emm...tml studying with debbie at a cafe...then watch movie on monday after mt=y shooting trianing tuesday F&C wednesday range training again...thursday nothing on and friday!!!council camp...till saturday...so packed...sob...=(aiyo...jeslinda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!she is the main issue now...she is my saddest part of my life...now...=(sorry!!!!!!!!!!forgive me ba...
Sunday, March 30, 2008
{ 'why do you have to force me?' }
i super super super sad now...)": coz of that jeslinda.AGAIN.she just bloody keep forcing me to ask debbie shut up just becoz of their own personal problems.is not like debbie not my friend like that.you expect me to scold my friend just becoz of your own personal problem?i am like the middle person lah.why always me?both of you are my friends.why your have to force me?i am also a human being,jeslinda.my world do not only revoles around you.so what if you are my friend?so what if you are really that important to me?debbie is also important to me.she is also my friend,my good friend.i know i cant afford to quarral with you anymore and i cant afford to lose such a friend like you anymore but...you are really giving me lots of stress.do you really thinks that N.A no stress?zhong hua N.A study the same thing as express okay?what makes you think that i dun have stress from you?always forcing me to interfer with the things in between you and debbie.)": hey darling,even if i am an alien,i also need to breathe de okay?maybe we really is not suitable to be friends.i was actually still looking forward towards tml de lei.at least its the first day i see you after we quarral and was okay again.nvm.i knew this would happened le.nvm.haix.mid year exam coming soon.i wanna pass everything.i must study like slave now le.jia you ppls.althought my mood is super affected,but i still have to balance my shooting,council and studies well.if not i will die badly.i will kill myself one day if i am really under stress.hiax.my life once use to be very free,compared to now,one person turned my world upside down.stupid jackass.i gonna slap myself everyday before i study or whatever.kill myself one day is my wish now.hope that my wish will come true one day.)": my life is really miserable if she dun gets happy...smile please...)":
Monday, March 24, 2008
{ 'haha...i am quite an emo kid actually...' }
hey.haha.corrina,yeah i am actually quite emo de lah.just that i am not really that emo in primary school nia...ya lah.nvm de lah.haha.coz of one person mah.BUT!i am not so emo until i will cut myself that type.althought tried before.for fun.haha.=)i am mad lah seriously.i am still listening to tears drop on my guitar.lol.i am crazy over this song now.super nice lah.shoooting having NYT compition soon.not really interested in getting into NYT even if i can.haha.haix.ppl like me can enter meh?i dun think so.since i am also not interested.it doesnt matter much too much to me anyway.someone badly affected me this few days.keep on seeing someone that i dun really wanna meet.groan super loud today coz i saw that person.i was like what the hell...the more i dun wanna see that person then that person appears more in front of me.i am mad lah.she was the one whoo turn me more emo in sec school anyway.ahaha.shiling also an emo kid.at least she is one in everybody's eye.haha.except for dancing.thats the only time when we can see her eally enjoying herself.haha.haix.yeah..didnt really get alot of sleep this few days.i just hope that i dun really see that person so often anymore.if not i will crazy and stand in the middle of the road and let the car go over me.thats the best.i am an emo kid seriously...
Friday, March 21, 2008
{ 'i waited and waited today,but she didn't appear...i was so sad...=(for no good reason...' }
today i waited for a person to appear...but the person didn't.i was sad.for no good reason.haix.why?i also dunno.until now,i am still waiting for that person.now is already 12.57am.i am watching bullfighting to kill my time.i dunno why i spent so much time in waiting that person today.am i too free?tsk tsk.=(super sad.maybe i am crazy.and abit nuts.nvm.i am such a stupid person.that person made me feel so stupid indeed.today's moon was really big.really nice.but one person looking at the moon make me feel like crying.i felt that i am like a loner.whatever.i am one actually.haha.i am just so pathetic.but nvm.i should get use to it.i dun care.loner.i am.tears soon will fall out of my eyes.should i stop my tears?i dunno.maybe i shouldn't.really...i am tired waiting for her.i should give up,shouldn't i?i wanna die.nope!i shouldn;t give up!!!i should continue to wait for her.now 1.24am.i am listening to a song by taylor swift;tearsdrop on my guitar.its s nice song.but i feel more lonely.nvm.i must jia you.maybe that person will realise that i am doing all these for that person.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
{ 'whatever...sad lah...aiyo...dunno how to explain now...' }
lol...very long never post le.about 5 days i guess.haix...what to write lei?seriously nothing much happened.just that i got CWO on tuesday if i am not wrong.my whole class gotta clear the bloody field within 15mins.obvisely it wont be clear enough can?!but coz of one guy in my class the whole class gotta do the stupid CWO.lol.--lll.yesterday my form teacher told our class to prepare for another CWO again.coz we are having literture.and the boys will denfinately play afool monkey around the class,then my literture teacher will confirm be extremely furious lah.then she will chase my classmate out of my class and everyone!TIME FOR CWO!!!lol.stupid asshole benjamin make sure you keep your mouth shut k?before everyone smack you up.nvm.irrating jackass.haix...went to fiona house on wednesday.with wei qian and my sec school schoolmate.study eat play.like that only loh.then i borrow fiona's laptop.i actually wanted to post my blog and MSN de lah.then half way through when i was talking with jeslinda and hui xin the com black out.haha.lol.nvm.forget it.emm...this few days my council job was still fine.i am still under P.A i guess.but my job is side gate now.i am suppose to catch those who has no name tag,ankle shoes,head phone around thier neck that type loh.lol.i caught camilla yesterday without nametag.haha.then she give me that type of lj face.so funny!!!=)but it was rather exhausting too.early early must be there le.so must go out early.but it fun with my friend there.we talk about things after that.sit there and wait.whatever~k lah.i also nothing to post about le.haix.k lah.bye bye.i am gonna do my other stuff le.miss me ba.dunno next post will be when.sorry.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
{ 'council camp was super fun!i love it!=)' }
i just ended my council camp yesterday.it was SUPER fun lah!then is like there are so many games can?!so bloody fun.we must thx bianca and jia yi for setting so fun games.i had learn a new food cheer on my council camp.it goes like this,'i say zhong hua you say eh you say eh you say eh,i say zhong hua you say ba you say ba you say ba,i say zhong hua you say eh,i say zhong hua you say ba,i say zhongnhua you say ehhhhh ba!'haha.lol.it sound abit weird lah,but its nice.at least nice to me.then we got night tour.WOW!i tell you,its SUPER BLOODY FUN!shi yuan phyllis valerie they all pretended to be ghost,lol.but i only can say that phyllis is very very very very very scary~lots of girls were freak out by her lah.lan eh.then alot of girls,including my group of girls,back out.coz of PHYLLIS.super scary lah~then she was like threw the ball at us then the sound that the ball made was so scary...then she pointed at the ball.btw,when we walk up the stairs,they both were singing.and its very soft plus it scary.then after the ball dropped down,she pointed at it.we picked up the ball and i threw it towards her.then she was like never catch lah.then shiling(she was in my group)say that we are suppose to pass her the ball personally.but no one dare.then shiling said that such a waste of time then she just took the ball and pass it to phylllis.then phyllis told us something that made everyone freaked out so bloody badly.she said she wanted to play hide and seek with us.then we were all like huh?what to do next?then everyone just stood there not moving.then i asked phyllis are we suppose to hide and she come and find us.then she said yes.then we all were like saying oh my god.we still didnt moved.then phyllis came down instead.we all moved back a step then we all shouted and we all turn and ran.haha.then i shouted so damn bloody loud in the hall lah.the hall is extremely dark lah.then we have to walk towards the grand piano.the piano was so scary but its so extreme obvious that there is ppl under it.coz their head can be seen.and very obvious that its shi yuan who suddenely came out from the piano lah.coz we all can recognize her watch.haha.lol.but we didnt finish everything lah.coz no time and we all freak out already.so..ya.you know.somemore at that time is already 11.00pm le.and we haven bathe yet.so the game just ended like that loh.and after this night tour,so many girls were freak out by phyllis i suppose,all didnt bathe.but i did bathe lah.but its so extreme fast lah.haha.=)but the whole day was nice.then the second day,we play a three min relay.the whole of the council group have to play.there are 17 ststions if i am not wrong lah.then we all are suppose to finish all 17 stations within three min.my job was to piggy back my team mate.and i was laughing all the way.haha.lol.very tired de hor.=)haha.like that loh.we completed it within 6min and 10 sec.yay!=)cheer!!!!very good!!!!!!!!!everyone put in effort and at least this game bond us together.all thx to bianca.and everyone.i just love this camp.we also attend lots of talks.grooming session.banner making.hall deco.lots.nvm.they are great.really.i highly apperiate the EXCO members for their effort.i love you all!=)mucks.and of course!my group 'ANYTHING'!thats my group name.yeah..my group was like super united!bianca awarded my group 10points for my group for our team work.haha.yay!good right?haha.my group was the only group that get the 10 points for team work.haha.k lah.ling en is here at my house now.we going to bake muffins now lei.i love my group.haha.and we are suppose to gather at the parade square on monday 7.10am.lol.=)
Monday, March 10, 2008
{ 'got a bloody shock coz of TAN HUI XIN!!!=P' }
bloody...tan hui xin...you hor.make me so damn shock lah!=Pyou hor.forever giving me shock de lei...you are just so...CUTE!yeah..thats the only word to describe you.haha.you hor,so cute ah!you die liao.make me shock like hell!i will...make sure i will make sure you will suffer~muhahahahaha!yeah..prepare to suffer on monday!=Pdun even think of running away on monday when school re-open arh...haha.dun forget i have shooting~i am taking the same bus and train as you...haha!so evil of me~like you did something that really shocked me like that.haha.=ptoday was such a bad day for me.woke up at 9.45am coz of jia en.this few days she kept on asking me question so early in the morning about shooting can?but i dun mind.just that my beauty sleep is being disturb by her.haha.nvm.tml still got bloody F & C in school for shooting club.so kns lah.dun feel like going.unless someone cheer for me.haha.lol.if tml really got ppl show u after reading this post,i will be so bloody touched.i will hug that person like xiao lah.but not when i am sweaty.haha.you know~yeah..tml going to catch a movie at bugis.then i actually wanna jio jeslinda out but i know she is so damn angry with me so not possible lah.then the next person i think of is valerie.she so damn cute lah.make me think of her so much.haha.as a senior nia k?not les!=pnow trying to get juliana to help me get hui xin blog.to scare her too.haha.i am just so evil.i have a devil that is living deep in my heart.but is not that really that evil until like a vain lah.that ang mo so gross lah.keep asking for my pic...bloodly.i blocked him le.and deleted him off my contact le.ha sucker~=Pthey suck~i dun give them any damn by the way.and...i wanna say something to somebody:i love you.and i am sorry if i never tell you i love you.just that i am afraid that we might not be able to even be friend le.i am rally sorry to keep you in the dark.if one day i find it that its the time for me to say out that i love you,i will.but not now.i am afraid.but i only wan you to know,i will always be beside you if you need me.just give me a call on my phone or just a simple msg that show me that you are sad,i will give you a call or reply you back to console you.coz i wan you to know that at least i love you.so deeply in my heart...stay happy always.dun be moody~i love you.
Friday, March 7, 2008
{ 'stupid ang mo...' }
this few days,i have being getting all this stupid ang mo sending me adding me when i dun ever know them can?!they all keep on asking me to let them see me nakeD!fuck their mum lah!i told one of them that i am from korea and my father is an american while my mum is a korean.haha.serve him right!got one stupid ang mo say he wanna sex with me.knn.lucly i never tell him my real name i told him my name is darva and i am 19.haha.he was fooled by me.after that i just scolded him and block plus deleted his contact.fucker.if any of you recieve such things,dun care them.just make sure you delete plus block them off k?expecially girls.must be careful.never ever let your information leak out.dun tell them your real name or age.they all only want you to send them your video naked and porn pictures.dun be so naive and just do what they tell you okay?=)k lah.thats all for now.good night.remember what i say okay?
{ 'tsk tsk...hurt her so badly...' }
now i am at my buddy house...debbie ngo pei shan...keke...nvm.your dun even know her.sze ping also here...she just so cute!haha.by the way,today nothing much happened!oh!by the way alicia!happy birthday!!!i give you the birthday present on council camp can?psps...benjamin still own me money now.so i buy you the present as soon as possible...and i am sorry that i cant attend your party on wednesday.but i will ask ken to go loh...heard that you and seo rin okay liao right?thats great...haha...=)today was such a bad day...got bloody literture test essay writting.so bloodly difficult loh...arh!!!write until half then suddenly fall asleep...haha!!!so funny.i think i cannot think that i can pass loh..i think i got a little out off point loh...=(sad...sob sob...today i did something horrible to jeslinda again loh...haix...i go tell her something horrrible again...huh...how???so terrible...i was like so sad lah!=(its just like on matter how i do i still cannot ease her heart...haix...jeslinda dun sad le...i am sorry...you can talk to me if you are sad...about debbie...you know...its not that i dun care about you its just that i am angry that you like to hurt yourself...you know...yeah...hmm...sorry...
Thursday, March 6, 2008
{ 'hiax...so tired...' }
lolz...i now damn bloody guai lan...and angry with myself for saying such hurtful words to jeslinda...arh!!!i did a damn kns mistake loh!=(is like i go tell jeslinda that i dun ever care about what she gonna do to herself loh.i go say to her,"what can you do to me?!call vinnette?tell debbie?cut yourself or wanna cry again?i dun care at all loh.you use pen knife or scissors cut yourself i also dun care you can?!you need chopper?i have a very sharp chopper at home lei!you need it or not?i can lend you lei!"i so sad and i regretted saying that to jeslinda...i dun care if she feel hurt or not but all i know is that i am too much...aiya...so du lan now loh...how toy solve this problem???and i suddenly find myself so childish for something i said...i go tell debbie to tell jeslinda that i dun wanna be friend with her...its like what the fuck lah...like that also can arh???i super childish lah!say all this stupid things to hurt her...bloodly angry with myself...i dun ever know how am i gonna have my bloodly shitty literture essay test!somemore same paper as express.why zhong hua standard so high?N.A also study so hard...but its good...at least i can know more...thats what i am grateful for...jeslinda so sorry that i hurt you if i did...i wasnt on purpose just that i was really angry with you that you say you wanted to cut yourself again.its not that i dun care its just that i really dunno what to say to stop you...=(if i could stop you i wont have said that le...i am really sorry about it if i really hurt you...coz i just realised the grave mistake i made...its the bigggest mistake that i have ever made,to you.i shouldnt have shout at you or neither should i have tell you to cut yourself...really...if you dun forgive me,it doesnt matter,just that i wanna tell you be happy must eat your lunch or dinner k?dun skip it anymore....later like kast time you stomach ache...and you really look cuter with your hair band on...keke...remember it okay?tsk tsk...today long preformed during recess.he played and sing with his guitor...he was great...yeah...hmm...it should be...at least to me...emm...tml studying with debbie at a cafe...then watch movie on monday after mt=y shooting trianing tuesday F&C wednesday range training again...thursday nothing on and friday!!!council camp...till saturday...so packed...sob...=(aiyo...jeslinda!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!she is the main issue now...she is my saddest part of my life...now...=(sorry!!!!!!!!!!forgive me ba...
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