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Saturday, June 28, 2008
{'my dream is no longer there' } hello everyone.super long never post liao.alot of things happened after school re-open.i got kick out of COUNCIL...)": yoo know the reason?just becoz mr heng went to complain to ms ong that i a rude to him and never attend my cca.BULLSHITTING.who is he to say so?he is not my form teacher okay?!all he want is that shooting must concentrate on shooting ONLY.we cannot have our dreams.we cannot do whatever we want.he is not giving us any merit points of attending cca even loh!!!still come and complain about me.like i care?!i wrote a leele to ms ong that day to rebark back.i just said that if i am relly rude,mr lim also wont recommand me into council liao loh!talk cock!!!plning to quit shooting.jia en too.sice no merit point,no point going.i shall see what can he do to me.i will treat him how he treat me.anyway,my back hurts...)": coz i fell that day in school canteen.jasmine stood up and i just fall back with the chair.my butt landed on the ground real hard and i knock my back adainst the chair behind.kanna sia.painful like shit loh.nevermind.i dun bloody care.knock me till i die the best.i will scream for joy.going grandma house later.lingen super flirt.kay lah.shouldnt talk anymore.oh!got a quote online. if yoo find it in your heart to care about somebody else,yoo will have succeeded. --Maya Angelou i love my emo friends.3.44pm. Friday, June 20, 2008
{'if this didnt happen...' } if i didnt said all this things,maybe our friendship will still continue. if i dun have a second personality,maybe i wouldnt hurt you. if i had think carefully before i speak,we might still be talking to each other now. if i wasnt that stupid,i would not have mistaken your meaning. if i could,i would like to apologise to you. i am sorry,yuxuan. althought i know i had being a bugger, but i had never wanted to mean anything bad for what i had said. if you feel hurt like what debbie said, i am really sorry. sorry is the only word that i can say now. if i didnt said anything hurtful to you, maybe we are still friends. but whatever i had said, make me really guilty. i didnt apologize coz i am forced to do, but they are the words deep in my heart. i love our friendship, and hope that you would not be angry with me if you are. coz i am afraid, to be left alone in my life without you. sorry.)= and i am never dead, with you. i love my emo friends.11.37pm. {'i am afraid...' } i am afraid that once you put down the phone,i would never ever get a chance to talk to you again... i am afraid that once you get out of my sight,i will miss you so badly... i am afraid that once i see you,i would never bear to leave you again... i am afraid that once i fall in love with you,i would not be able to withdraw my feelings for you... i am afraid that once you know i fall in love with you,you will avoid me... i am afraid that once you avoid me,i will be really sad... i am afraid that you would not want me to protect you... i am afraid that you would not want me by your side... i am afraid that you would leave me one day... i am afraid that you would forget me... i am afraid that you would not accept me... i am afraid that you would be lonely... i am afraid that you are angry... i am afraid that you are emo... i am afraid that you are hurt... i am afraid that you are sad... i am afraid that you are bored... i am afraid that you are disappointed... and leastly, i am afraid that you would not know that i really love you... i love my emo friends.7.52pm. {'looking forward towards school re-open...' } hello everyone.xian here.at home nothing to do at all.hmm...haven being getting enough sleep nowadays.arh...yesterday i slept at 6.11am.again.just cannot get into bed lah.dun feel like.then i woke up at 11.25pm today morning.okay lah.actually quite used to it le.wonder how can i survive next time after school re-opens...lol.i often complains about how early i had to wake up every morning during school days but now i am given a month holiday but i seems to be rotting at home only.whatever.when to watch kungfu panda that day.super funny lah.haha...i went for two movies in total during the holiday and dunno spend how much on them.wah...school re-open i broke liao.but still look forward to school re-open.so that i can hug wan jung.haha.miss her lots.i dun even remember how i look like in my uniform with my tie le.blablabla...haven touch on my english postcast yet.and i just realised that i had not hand in my literature,chinese,science and maths files!!!thats alot of work to do.haiz...just dun hope that ms aw is our literature or form teacher...if not 1n1 will be killed by her...nevermind.dunno what else to say.then i should end here ba. i love my emo friends.5.08pm. Monday, June 16, 2008
{'quiz again...' } 1. At what age do you wish to get married? age of 24. 2. Study hard or Play hard? both. 3. Who is the person you trust most? yuxuan.in fact,myself. 4.Why do you think you have not enough confidence? coz i look down on myself. 5. If you have a dream come true , what would it be? MORE WISHES! 6. What is your idea of a friend? hmm...trust i guess.but i hope my friends can trust me and come to me when they have prob. 7.What is your goal this year? i guess it should be studies,getting into council and find the guy in my dream. 8.Do you believe in eternity love? somehow yes. 9. If you have all the time and money in the world , what would you do? then life would be meanless. 10.If time were to unwind , what would you want to change? my results and reality. 11.Is friendship or studies more important? friendship.so if next time i dun graduate(touchwood),my friends will work and support me.haha,stupid question. 12. What feelings you hate the most? being hurted. 13. Do you cherish all the friendship of yours? not all i guess? 14. Do you believe in love at first sight? YES!!!for some of them. 15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? those people surrounding me now and in the future. 16.Who do you hope to be always behind you , supporting you? my love ones.expecially my boyfriend. 17. People who are going to be hated by you? if they love me,i dun see the problem of me hating them. 18.Describle the person who tagged you in five words. they are loved by me. 19.How many percent you think you are infront of your friends? it depends.i hope at least i pass. 20. Would you sacrifice for friends? yeah.. i love my emo friends.1.08pm. {'i am afraid of losing him...' } hello darlings.i had another weird dream again.and this time is about my future boyfriend.and i love him alot.he said something in my dream and i just hugged him and cried.i hugged him really tight and i am afraid of losing him.i dun wanna forget about this dream.coz this dream...seems so real...i do hope i can have a boyfriend who loves me as much as he does.when i woke up,i had a feeling as though i will really meet him.lols.and i dun think i would be able to get him off my mind ba?even if yes,but i dun think i will get him off my mind in such short period ba?and i have a really strong feeling i will meet him one day...and i seem to miss him alot now...hope that i can meet him soon...i love the boyfriend in my dream...alot...maybe i should hide him somewhere deep in my heart.nothing to say le.going out le lah.going juliana house do project le.bye bye...miss him and i love him... i love my emo friends.12.44pm. {'nothing to do and decided to post again' } diao.theres nothing for me to do now.so i decided to post again.yun wei tagged and said that she saw us during the holiday at yishun there.buying bubble tea.lao.she never call for us.haiz.miss all my friends.wanna hug someone.anyone wanna let me hug?haha...just joking.wanna hug wan jung.miss her super lot lah.miss my big jie jie.haaa...miss so many people.lazy to name them out.1n1 gals.miss them the most.lets try to get something to do for the following 6 days.miss wearing my uniform.oh!did i mention about my weird dream?yesterday night,i dreamt that i was back in my primary school for activity and games.then ling en was back too.since we both are ex-students,we have to help the rest of the zhonghuarians with the games.then i had to pair up people and i realised that my teacher grouped ling en and i with belinda and someone else.then i screamed very very loudly.then i kept running around my school.then i hid in P.E room with lingen.no one found us.then at the end of the day,i took bus 238 and i end up at somewhere.lol.then i got off the bus and started walking.i walk and walk and walk straight and i end up in jurong!i called yuxuan and by the time she answer her phone,i collasped.then i became really really tired and in the end,i found myself sleeping on my bed.-.-what the hell...when will my weird dreams end?lol.nevermindlah.i am not gonna sleep early this few days.i wanna be a panda.haha...i will sleep late and wake up late.so maybe this week will end faster.i wanna go back to school fast!!!i love school.and i wanna hug wan jung.or anyone will do. i love my emo friends.8.40pm. {'i dunno lah.' } ello peoples.so long never post liao.haiz.tml going to watch kungfu panda...i dun really look forward towards it anyway.coz i think it will be boring.not really interested in movies nowadays.coz my brother like to ask me sooooo many questions that i also dunno de.lao.how to enjoy a movie like that?blablabla...i asked yuxuan if she wanna watch but she never say anything.then she say my bro very cute.lol.never say i cute.haha.nevermind.i not so petty.whooo...very happy that this week is the last week of holiday liao.hahaahhaa.FINALLY!!!rot for so many week liao lah!!!I LOVE MY SCHOOL!!!and friends too.tml doing project with lingen mel and juliana.haven got any infomation about it yet.wa lao.feel so warm.so hot.hope that singapore have snow.thats nothing i can do to amke singapore snow anyway.so no point saying it.then i nothing to say liao.so bye people...i loove you all...hope to see you soon after the holidays... i love my emo friends.6.25pm. Wednesday, June 11, 2008
{'i am not sure of my feelings...' } ello i am back.i wanna watch they kiss again2.waiting for it to load.i am so xian.i wanna go back to school.): wahwah.i am so lonely!dun wanna stay at home.but no where elseto go liao.want go watch movie also no money.wanna buy couple ring.to keep.not for anyone.-.- its for someone i really love next time in the future.dunno what to post about.talking to my best friend now.primary school de lah.janine.she is such a cute gal.=) miss her so much.wanna meet her...then i dun feel like going for class gathering for primary six.seem to be so boring.but if janine go then i will go.ahhh....so xian at home.rotting soon.maybe i should rot now.ohya.i really dunno who i excaltly like...or even love.i do still miss him...but how about the other one?can anyone tell me what to do?hiaz...i bet no one can do it.nevermindit then.got another weird dream.i tried to kill myself after i slash my both arms with a pen knife.then i walk towards a wall and knock my head hard on it.then i just fainted beside yuxuan.then lingen called for ambulance and tiffany accompany me to the hospital.i was in a coma due to the knock i had on my head.then i was in the ICU.the doctor started bullshitting and tell tiffany that i lost too much blood and i might die.so tiffany decided to donate her blood to me.then i was save.after that,lingen called me in real life and she bloodly woke me up.hmm...why am i always getting weird dreams nowadays?does that shows that i am gonna die soon?if yes,then someone please help me continue blogging okay?thank you.i love you all.haha...just trying to be stupid here.nevermind.nothing else to say liao.going off.bye...and i am not who you think i am. i love my emo friends.4.08pm. {'i am not who you think i am.stop trying to act as thought you understand me!' } i am not who you think i am!i am not who you think i am!i am not who you think i am!i am not who you think i am!never ever try to act as thought you understand me okay?!hmmm...i say i am not who i am means i am not.if you think i am the one who you really understand alot,then by all means.if i dun explain to you why i say this,that shows that i dun trust you enough.so,this is why i take so much effort to go through all this shit.i dun trust you.try to know me more ba. i love my emo friends.6.37pm. Tuesday, June 10, 2008
{'weird dreams...' } ello,me here.have very weird dreams again...did i mention about what i dreamt of?i dream that i actually stead with jeremiah-.- stupid dream.hope that this never come true.then yesterday night i dreamt of someone else...hmm...no ponit revealing her name...but she is not from express.so no point guessing...and i am not a les.anyway,just recieve a super good news.NO SHOOTING FOR ALL SEC 1 NEXT WEEK!!!cool...i just love the news.haha...but that shows that i will have nothing to do for the whole of next week...oh god...save me someone...oh...i hope i dun get retain for goodness sake anyway.just becoz of that bloody bitch hulingen...she is soooo lazy.just dun wanna get started on our project.ENGLISH LEI!!!never hand up will fail de hor.i dun wanna retain.she wanna retain is her bloody problem so i am never gonna care about her.even if she wanna die also not in front of me.i dun care what ppl think of me.coz i dun live for them.i live for myself and my friends plus families.bleahhh...if she wanna harm us,then let her be... i love my emo friends.5.26pm. Sunday, June 8, 2008
{'oh...dream of myself getting into council.=)hope it come true.' } ello everyone.miss yuxuan so much.she is in malaysia anyway...=( i want yuxuan.so long never talk to her.but lucky she got call me yesterday night.haha...talk for awhile then she kup le...very ex mah.btw,tonight my grandma will return for china.and its my grandpa's birthday.haha...so cool.then i am gonna cook for them.hope it wont get burn.haha.i am not a bad cook anyway.yesterday i had a super dream.i dreamt of myself getting into council!!!and of coz,winnie and melody they all too.cool ba?then i got my council badge.hope it really come true.if it does,i will be so happy till i jump everywhere ba i guess.=)haha...i love yesterday's weather.it was so cool.no need on fan also very cooling...went to my maternal grandma place for dinner outside.sooo nice...i wanna watch kungfu panda anyway.wanna get melanie,lingen,mandy and some other ppl along.and my brother of coz.he has being asking me this question ever since 6 june.btw,i dun think i going for 1n1's class gathering.dun have the mood and no one seems to be interested.it depends anyway...i realsied that all of my post are so random lah...blablabla...i just hope that i can survive throught this boring holiday and get back to school soon... i love my emo friends.1.37pm. Wednesday, June 4, 2008
{'being random again.' } saw this on debbie's blog.quizzz again.but i think i wont name twenty ppl ba.i think i will name 10 ppl ba...haha... 1.yuxuan 2.lingen 3.debbie 4.melody 5.yunwei 6.marcus 7.long 8.zoey 9.remus 10.weiwei Q1.how did you get to know number 5?(yunwei) ans:hmm...forgot le.from yuxuan i think. Q2.if one day,number 6(marcus)was kill in an accident,what will your first reaction be? ans:err...i will be sad and then i will cry like shit. Q3.what if number 7(long) date number 8(zoey)? ans:emm...happy?they look suitable for each other lei...hehe... Q4.whatif number 10(weiwei) marry number 9(remus)? ans:totally not possible... Q5.describe number1.(yuxuan) ans:err...she is a nice gal who i really trust alot. Q6.where does number4(melody)live? ans:hougang... Q7.will number2(lingen)ever get marry? ans:haha...i cannot predict the future you see... Q8.what do you think number3(debbie)likes? ans:basketball,that person bla bla bla... sorry for being so random...just feel like doing it.coz really nothing to do at home.haha... i love my emo friends.2.23pm. {'life is still going on for me...' } yesterday went back to school.it was for council this time.really hope that i will enter council.raining now.make me feel like sleeping...but just cannot fall asleep due to lots of thing.thinking of someone now.no need to guess le lah.is my ex-classmate.if you think that its a guy,then you are right.if you think i am a lesbian,go to your window and jump down now.just joking.no need to die lah.just knock your head against the wall can le.haha...now i abit mad.for no good reason.my legs hurt so badly.yesterday practice walk-in and out the hall.hmmm...wanna get a pair of new school shoes.dunno what type of shoes to buy.hai...see first lah...hmm...will have another class gathering soon.good.should i ask him along again?but i think he dun seem to enjoy himself lei...nevermind.see first then decide.haha...by the way,need to get stocking for council.and a pair of black shoes.arh...i told my mum about it.then she say i later buy le then never enter council.(touchwood)haix.really hope that i can enter council...nothing much to post nowadays.holidays are boring but yet enjoyable in other ways.bleahhh...wanna go out later.go to book fair.suan bian buy shoes.haha...finally found my pen-knife.wanna do something with it.hmm... i love my emo friends.1.31pm Monday, June 2, 2008
{'quizzzz time...' } 1) Have you seen a miracle happening in your life? ans:hmm...nope.but hope to see one soon. Q2) What is the thing you want most now? ans: my friends.expecially yuxuan,melanie and marcus?(: Q3) If you had lots of wishes to wish for, what would it be? ans: the earthquake in china didnt happened,get true love and hope that my friends are happy.same goes to my family. Q4) What are you afraid to lose now? ans: my family members,my friends expecially yuxuan,mel,lingen,belinda and janine.(of coz.i dun wanna lost all my other friends too.) Q5) Do you believe in eternal love? ans:it depends on who is my other half. Q6) If you meet someone you love,will you confess to him/her? ans:if he love me too,yes.if not,i will love him sercetly. Q7) What is in your mind? ans: will i be able to meet my true love? Q8) What if you are getting tired of everything, would you just give up? ans:yes.on myself.then i will jay walk and get run over by cars. Q9) Would you give up your everything to save someone important to you one day? ans:yes.including my life. Q10) What do you want your friendship to be like? ans: no sercets and trust is very important. Q11) What is your favourite hobby? ans: chat on phone and try to understand my love ones. Q12) Which country do you wish to go most? ans: never thought of it.maybe australia.love mel too much le. Q13) If you feel low one day, who will you go to? ans: yuxuan. Q14) Will you give up everything for the person you love? ans: no.will he ever give up his everything for me? Q15) If you have the permission to destroy someone/thing. what would it be? ans:myself.self destory.kill myself will be the best thing. Q16) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? ans: of coz.this is not a matter of believing.its true. Q17) What type of person do you hate most? ans: no one.if ppl backstab or talkbad about you,there must be a reason. Q18) Would you cherish every friendship of yours? ans: ya.my friends take up quite alot space in my heart. Q19)If one day,you are left with nothing,what will you do? ans:i think i will collasp. Q20)Who is the person that you trust the most? ans:hmm...is either yuxuan or mel. i am so random.haha.just saw the quiz and i decided to do it.since so many ppl are doing it now.lol. i love my emo frineds.1.06pm. {'BOO.guess who am i?' } ello everyone.how are you?i am doing well in the holidays but its just that this is the most tiring holiday i ever had.zhonghua holiday is so stress.shooting,studies...so many extra class.first week of holiday was like a piece of shit.have to go to school for PACE class and shooting after that.then my shooting clashed with some of the classes and i gotta skip it.mr heng is like so angry with me lah.say i wasted money and if i dun get to achieve my target,he is gonna move me to another cca.which means kick me out of shooting loh.my father say he too unreasonable.make me give up studies coz of shooting.my father still wanted to complain to mrs dolly ong.imagine he really do that,then i think i will be kick out of shooting immdiately.but my father say i can transfer to any other cca i like.hmm...if i really quit shooting,i thinki iwll join uniform group ba...SJAB?or what?dun wanna join GB or GG.coz just dun feel like.haha.anyway,i also not quiting shooting.my friends dun want me to quit too.coz they say its cool.-.- reasons are becoz shooting only got four sec1 four sec 2.then is like the whole school only got the eight fantastic one in shooting.somemore shooting is still a new cca.whoo...they say until like as thought shooting is really so nice.its not as nice as you think.its tiring...*yawn* opps...if mr heng see this post i will shoot by him le.haha.yesterday went to watch Narnia Prince Caspian.its SUPER.never miss it.you will regret for life.i just love susan so much.she is so cool lah.then she kiss Prince Caspian in front of everyone.wah...so romantic...haha...=) you should catch it.i highly recommand it.i still wanna watch accurancy of death,kongfu panda bla bla bla...so nice...kay.nothing to say now.miss me. i love my emo friends.12.06pm. |
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