hello everyone.it seems to be as though i had not posted for years.time pasted so slowly this three days.lalala.xian loh.this few days in school,hmm...at least i felt much better than before.cause yuxuan jia en they all that accompany me to attend councilling session know how i am feeling inside.although the gap in between some of my friends are still rather big,but at least they understand what i am thinking.now i am just fine.still smiling like i used to.just that sometimes it a fake smile.next wednesday got another session of councilling.but got interclass.so i will be later.jasmine is such a nice friend.she actually wanna give up her match just to accompany me lei!!!so touched.although i know that to be able to say love,is love but little,i still wanna tell jasmine i love her alot.thanks for being by my side.=) the pleasure of love is in loving.okay.thats all for now.i am going bake cake.IN THE KITCHEN.not toilet.-.- LOL.
i love all my friends!10.23pm.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
{'lalala.sad.' }
lalala.sad.hello everyone.back here again to be emo.today in school so sad and emo.cause now everyone do china si chuan earthquake.i dun think i got over it.is like i feel so emo this few days.see yao le also no help.the empty feeling will still be there...go council ling lah.who wanna go with me?ha ha.stupid question.who will be like me?so emo...i dunno lei.just feel so...empty.yeah..i kept writing my feelings in the notebook.Juliana was the first one who read it.feel so sorry towards yao le.just now i was feeling rather down.i went to the toilet and saw yao le there.lao.then she hugged me.sadden.i very sad and emo at that time,so i hugged yao le really tight.coz...yeah loh.super feel like crying at that moment.i sat at the back of the class door.yao le and yuxuan came back from the toilet.yao le said hi to me,but i never reply her at all loh.saddened.i feel that i am so mean.i got ask yuxuan help me apologize to her liao.lalala.sad.lalala.unforgivable.lalala.emo.lalala.sorry.aiiyaa...i dunno what else can i say lah. maybe i am one of the aliens.thats why i also say something that your would never understand.sorry lah.someone fuckingly slaughter and send me down to hell please...i love yao le alot...
o love my emo friends.5.06pm.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
{'maybe its just a reflection of myself in your eyes but not the love towards me...' }
hello everyone.i dunno what to post about.feel rather stress this few days. i want yao le. i miss yao le. yao le so cute lah. yao le look so chio when she tie her hair. haha.i dunno lah. i miss yao le.yao le is so nice to me.i love her so so much... she is a nice little girl...tml i wanna stay back with yao le.i want her company... tml i go ask her if i can stay back with her... i wonder when will i get the cookies...feel like having it now... YAO LE SO CUTE... i am sorry...i am mad...
just to say, i wonder if it was just mainly a reflection of myself i saw in your eyes, or is that love? i know the answer lah. its just reflection. i tml go ask yao le. see what she say.i love yao le.
althought i always love my friends,but i love yao le alot too.9.45pm.
Friday, July 11, 2008
{'i dun lik[' }
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
{'walao.i did something super wrong today...' }
today was such a bad day for me.cause its like i did so much things wrong.anyway,yesterday went to watch Hancock with belinda,jasmine,lingen,debbie and my sweetie ranice.super funny super nice.lalala...jasmine very cute.just love her...althought her laughter is super...ahem...yeah.tml interclass.AGAIN.whatever.today nearly did something so wrong.nearly suck a lollipop.i bet your should understand lah hor.lucky got my sweetie with me.if it wasnt for her,i would have die.i am glad that she pulled me away lah.if not hor,haix.nevermind.my blog gonna die soon.haha.lol.ask weiling how would she feel if i interested in her.haha.she say dunno.lol.not lesbian anyway.we both not.so dun need anyhow think okay?hope that everyone can play well in interclass tomorrow.i love jasmine and ranice.
and yes,i really love my emo friends lah...1.10pm.
{'E-learning...not fun at all...' }
hello everyone.super long never post le.busy with homework.today e-learning.expected.UN-FUN.dun even understand how come my ex-classmates enjoy it so much?maybe their school different...decorating classroom with the theme of racial harmony day.dunno how to decorate it.when to watch the happening that day with yuxuan debbie lingen melanie huiming and the skinnest of all,VINITA.lol.super nice but abit scary...two days before was inter class.Lao.so many people cried.just because of lingen and Debbie.i also cried.coz feel very sad that 1n1 have to give up the chance of playing double girls.feel sorry towards 1e6.i am glad that i let them win.that's the least i can do.now i see 1e6 people i will hide or run.feel so sorry.especially towards winnie,yuxuan,belinda,jasmine and joel.make yuxuan and winnie stay back so long in the end they never got a chance to play.my fault.i should not let berlin and wei wei go home de.i should not have get melanie and ling en to play.let them kanna scolding by coach...)": lalala...this inter class game make me have phobia towards badminton.i guess i would never wanna pick up my badminton racket and fight in the inter class anymore.i dun think i would be able to overcome my phobia in such a short time.another inter class is coming again....this time playing with who i dunno.but just super sad.nevermind.
yaole's hand on inter class that day dunno why became very painful.hope that she is feeling better now.=)smile yaole!!! i just realized something bad about me.i just realized that i have not been true to my friends.everytime i am at home or at somewhere without my friends,my smile and laughter will not longer be there.but when i am facing my friends,i would be force to smile.i hope this doesn;t continues down.my friends mean alot to me.just hope i dun lost them...especially after inter class game...jasmine,yuxuan,yaole,belinda,winnie...)"=
i really love my emo friends lah...love them more than loving myself...12.47pm.
Friday, July 25, 2008
{ 'the pleasure of love is in loving.' }
hello everyone.it seems to be as though i had not posted for years.time pasted so slowly this three days.lalala.xian loh.this few days in school,hmm...at least i felt much better than before.cause yuxuan jia en they all that accompany me to attend councilling session know how i am feeling inside.although the gap in between some of my friends are still rather big,but at least they understand what i am thinking.now i am just fine.still smiling like i used to.just that sometimes it a fake smile.next wednesday got another session of councilling.but got interclass.so i will be later.jasmine is such a nice friend.she actually wanna give up her match just to accompany me lei!!!so touched.although i know that to be able to say love,is love but little,i still wanna tell jasmine i love her alot.thanks for being by my side.=) the pleasure of love is in loving.okay.thats all for now.i am going bake cake.IN THE KITCHEN.not toilet.-.- LOL.
i love all my friends!10.23pm.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
{ 'lalala.sad.' }
lalala.sad.hello everyone.back here again to be emo.today in school so sad and emo.cause now everyone do china si chuan earthquake.i dun think i got over it.is like i feel so emo this few days.see yao le also no help.the empty feeling will still be there...go council ling lah.who wanna go with me?ha ha.stupid question.who will be like me?so emo...i dunno lei.just feel so...empty.yeah..i kept writing my feelings in the notebook.Juliana was the first one who read it.feel so sorry towards yao le.just now i was feeling rather down.i went to the toilet and saw yao le there.lao.then she hugged me.sadden.i very sad and emo at that time,so i hugged yao le really tight.coz...yeah loh.super feel like crying at that moment.i sat at the back of the class door.yao le and yuxuan came back from the toilet.yao le said hi to me,but i never reply her at all loh.saddened.i feel that i am so mean.i got ask yuxuan help me apologize to her liao.lalala.sad.lalala.unforgivable.lalala.emo.lalala.sorry.aiiyaa...i dunno what else can i say lah. maybe i am one of the aliens.thats why i also say something that your would never understand.sorry lah.someone fuckingly slaughter and send me down to hell please...i love yao le alot...
o love my emo friends.5.06pm.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
{ 'maybe its just a reflection of myself in your eyes but not the love towards me...' }
hello everyone.i dunno what to post about.feel rather stress this few days. i want yao le. i miss yao le. yao le so cute lah. yao le look so chio when she tie her hair. haha.i dunno lah. i miss yao le.yao le is so nice to me.i love her so so much... she is a nice little girl...tml i wanna stay back with yao le.i want her company... tml i go ask her if i can stay back with her... i wonder when will i get the cookies...feel like having it now... YAO LE SO CUTE... i am sorry...i am mad...
just to say, i wonder if it was just mainly a reflection of myself i saw in your eyes, or is that love? i know the answer lah. its just reflection. i tml go ask yao le. see what she say.i love yao le.
althought i always love my friends,but i love yao le alot too.9.45pm.
Friday, July 11, 2008
{ 'i dun lik[' }
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
{ 'walao.i did something super wrong today...' }
today was such a bad day for me.cause its like i did so much things wrong.anyway,yesterday went to watch Hancock with belinda,jasmine,lingen,debbie and my sweetie ranice.super funny super nice.lalala...jasmine very cute.just love her...althought her laughter is super...ahem...yeah.tml interclass.AGAIN.whatever.today nearly did something so wrong.nearly suck a lollipop.i bet your should understand lah hor.lucky got my sweetie with me.if it wasnt for her,i would have die.i am glad that she pulled me away lah.if not hor,haix.nevermind.my blog gonna die soon.haha.lol.ask weiling how would she feel if i interested in her.haha.she say dunno.lol.not lesbian anyway.we both not.so dun need anyhow think okay?hope that everyone can play well in interclass tomorrow.i love jasmine and ranice.
and yes,i really love my emo friends lah...1.10pm.
{ 'E-learning...not fun at all...' }
hello everyone.super long never post le.busy with homework.today e-learning.expected.UN-FUN.dun even understand how come my ex-classmates enjoy it so much?maybe their school different...decorating classroom with the theme of racial harmony day.dunno how to decorate it.when to watch the happening that day with yuxuan debbie lingen melanie huiming and the skinnest of all,VINITA.lol.super nice but abit scary...two days before was inter class.Lao.so many people cried.just because of lingen and Debbie.i also cried.coz feel very sad that 1n1 have to give up the chance of playing double girls.feel sorry towards 1e6.i am glad that i let them win.that's the least i can do.now i see 1e6 people i will hide or run.feel so sorry.especially towards winnie,yuxuan,belinda,jasmine and joel.make yuxuan and winnie stay back so long in the end they never got a chance to play.my fault.i should not let berlin and wei wei go home de.i should not have get melanie and ling en to play.let them kanna scolding by coach...)": lalala...this inter class game make me have phobia towards badminton.i guess i would never wanna pick up my badminton racket and fight in the inter class anymore.i dun think i would be able to overcome my phobia in such a short time.another inter class is coming again....this time playing with who i dunno.but just super sad.nevermind.
yaole's hand on inter class that day dunno why became very painful.hope that she is feeling better now.=)smile yaole!!! i just realized something bad about me.i just realized that i have not been true to my friends.everytime i am at home or at somewhere without my friends,my smile and laughter will not longer be there.but when i am facing my friends,i would be force to smile.i hope this doesn;t continues down.my friends mean alot to me.just hope i dun lost them...especially after inter class game...jasmine,yuxuan,yaole,belinda,winnie...)"=
i really love my emo friends lah...love them more than loving myself...12.47pm.
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