hello peoples. super long no post. xian. dunno what to do. this few days were NOT okay. things are still as bad as before. nothing had changed for me. no improvement in studies yet. still working hard. avtually,i gave up. study or not is still the same. whatever. yesterday night iwas sitting on my bed listening to songs. listen till half,i started crying. cry until very jia lut. how weird can i get. this few days very cold. everyone take care k? dun fall sick. many things had happened in the past few weeks. and i feel so lost and hopeless. dunno why. anyone can help me dial for an ambulance and send me to the mental hospital? i guess i am going to go crazy soon. maybe i should hire a taxi later and go there myself. i had my will ready anyway. i dun think i have such long life. i wanna transfer school. for no good reason. just feel that my stress is too much. dunno how to destress too. maybe i should just get knock down one day and lose all my memories. so i would not remember anything. including him.
if he got a chance to read this,i just wanna tell him, to be able to look at you from far is enough for me. i just want you to be happy. although i am not the girl that you always wanted, but i just wanna know that you're happy when you are with me. and please always bear this in mind, when you need my help, i am always just behind you. you're deep there, in my heart, and there's no better time than today, to say there's no better love than you. i love you. don't walk in front of me- i may not follow. don't walk behind me- i may not lead. just walk beside me- and be my friend. haiz...
dunno lei.xian.like that loh. not feeling okay. i am such an attention seeker. i dislike myself. why am i here? dunno.fantastic 4 is doing great. hope that the best friend that i am looking for other then the fantastic 4 can hurry appear. i had collapse yesterday night. so i dunno if i will still be myself tml when i return school. maybe i will be a piece of emo shit. i really want my best friend. cause i wanna cry on her chest. and sleep on her shoulder. i just love her.
&i never know that i was such a pathetic person.5.23pm.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
{ 'AH-CHOOOO!*sniff*sniff* so cold...' }
hello peoples. super long no post. xian. dunno what to do. this few days were NOT okay. things are still as bad as before. nothing had changed for me. no improvement in studies yet. still working hard. avtually,i gave up. study or not is still the same. whatever. yesterday night iwas sitting on my bed listening to songs. listen till half,i started crying. cry until very jia lut. how weird can i get. this few days very cold. everyone take care k? dun fall sick. many things had happened in the past few weeks. and i feel so lost and hopeless. dunno why. anyone can help me dial for an ambulance and send me to the mental hospital? i guess i am going to go crazy soon. maybe i should hire a taxi later and go there myself. i had my will ready anyway. i dun think i have such long life. i wanna transfer school. for no good reason. just feel that my stress is too much. dunno how to destress too. maybe i should just get knock down one day and lose all my memories. so i would not remember anything. including him.
if he got a chance to read this,i just wanna tell him, to be able to look at you from far is enough for me. i just want you to be happy. although i am not the girl that you always wanted, but i just wanna know that you're happy when you are with me. and please always bear this in mind, when you need my help, i am always just behind you. you're deep there, in my heart, and there's no better time than today, to say there's no better love than you. i love you. don't walk in front of me- i may not follow. don't walk behind me- i may not lead. just walk beside me- and be my friend. haiz...
dunno lei.xian.like that loh. not feeling okay. i am such an attention seeker. i dislike myself. why am i here? dunno.fantastic 4 is doing great. hope that the best friend that i am looking for other then the fantastic 4 can hurry appear. i had collapse yesterday night. so i dunno if i will still be myself tml when i return school. maybe i will be a piece of emo shit. i really want my best friend. cause i wanna cry on her chest. and sleep on her shoulder. i just love her.
&i never know that i was such a pathetic person.5.23pm.
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