Hmm. Last night was a horrible and torturing one. Despite it wasn't what I wanted,but it seems to be the only way out. LOL. Cried non-stop. So was kind of sleepy this morning. LOL. BLABLABLA. Nevermind if you don't get what I mean. Cause it's not important. I don't know how you feel after that message,but I'm definitely not feeling any better. That's life isn't it? Hmm. Walk everywhere in school and I see flashbacks of us. Talking,playing etc. It's wonderful(; Thanks for the memories. I really appreciate them. And I'm burying those memories and the love from you somewhere deep in my heart where no one can snatch it away from me. It belongs to the both of us,those times,only us. Happy ending. Indeed. End of happiness,start of hell. It's regrettable not being able to watch the night with you,not being able to go for anymore movies together,not being able to find someone to lean on when I'm tired. It's painful to let go,apparently. Looking back,I don't regret loving you. I never had. Trust me. It's a part of my life that I won't never want to miss,despite of the ending which wasn't the right way. Even if I'm given a chance to restart my life,I'll never want to miss the stage when we were friends. It's the best part of my life. It sure is. Hope that life will be better for you. Go on with your future,find some friends that's much better. It seems to be fated for me to lose close friends during schooling time. Hmm. Is this like a prank of my life or what? I wonder how many times must I get hurt and takes a longggg time to get over it every single time. It's hard to do it,especially when I'm alone. Those tears that can't be control,those emotions that are going wild. I wonder how long more can I withstand them? I have to admit,although it's not the first time I'm facing such problems,but this time is definitely the most heart-aching one. Cause it wasn't meant to end it this way. Today feel like crying so much in chinese class after listening to what teacher had said. "Appreciate those you love,grab them and never let go. Never regret only after you lost the important ones." It reflects so well on me that I can't help it but feel sad and remorseful. You appeared in my mind. Everyday in school,the more I avoid you,the more I'll see you. It's something good,but it's not very nice as well. It's kind of,crush feelings. I can't help it but only cry while posting,because it hurts. Very much. Yes I do need you. And I need you badly. But what goes around must come down. Nevermind about me,nevermind about the past. May the nice smile of yours never fade,as well as the love from me to you. I love you. I miss you.
It's the end,and I'm not feeling okay. 5.47pm.
Thursday, July 9, 2009
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Posting again.
Hmm. Last night was a horrible and torturing one. Despite it wasn't what I wanted,but it seems to be the only way out. LOL. Cried non-stop. So was kind of sleepy this morning. LOL. BLABLABLA. Nevermind if you don't get what I mean. Cause it's not important. I don't know how you feel after that message,but I'm definitely not feeling any better. That's life isn't it? Hmm. Walk everywhere in school and I see flashbacks of us. Talking,playing etc. It's wonderful(; Thanks for the memories. I really appreciate them. And I'm burying those memories and the love from you somewhere deep in my heart where no one can snatch it away from me. It belongs to the both of us,those times,only us. Happy ending. Indeed. End of happiness,start of hell. It's regrettable not being able to watch the night with you,not being able to go for anymore movies together,not being able to find someone to lean on when I'm tired. It's painful to let go,apparently. Looking back,I don't regret loving you. I never had. Trust me. It's a part of my life that I won't never want to miss,despite of the ending which wasn't the right way. Even if I'm given a chance to restart my life,I'll never want to miss the stage when we were friends. It's the best part of my life. It sure is. Hope that life will be better for you. Go on with your future,find some friends that's much better. It seems to be fated for me to lose close friends during schooling time. Hmm. Is this like a prank of my life or what? I wonder how many times must I get hurt and takes a longggg time to get over it every single time. It's hard to do it,especially when I'm alone. Those tears that can't be control,those emotions that are going wild. I wonder how long more can I withstand them? I have to admit,although it's not the first time I'm facing such problems,but this time is definitely the most heart-aching one. Cause it wasn't meant to end it this way. Today feel like crying so much in chinese class after listening to what teacher had said. "Appreciate those you love,grab them and never let go. Never regret only after you lost the important ones." It reflects so well on me that I can't help it but feel sad and remorseful. You appeared in my mind. Everyday in school,the more I avoid you,the more I'll see you. It's something good,but it's not very nice as well. It's kind of,crush feelings. I can't help it but only cry while posting,because it hurts. Very much. Yes I do need you. And I need you badly. But what goes around must come down. Nevermind about me,nevermind about the past. May the nice smile of yours never fade,as well as the love from me to you. I love you. I miss you.
Who knows what will happen in the future?
Maybe I could become the next top model or actress.
I dream, and the sky is the limit.
Slow down and look around when you're chasing after your dream.
It might just be around you♥
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