it's not that i don't care,it's not that i'm putting on a brave side. it's just that,what do you people want me to do? how am i suppose to react? fuck it. i didn't wanted any of this to happen. i hope i never had entered zhss. it just messed up my life. how irritating can that be. stop rubbing salt into my wound. even the super glue can break down too. who's going to be there? who else can i expect to be there?! who ever noticed those changes i made,who ever bother to care about how i feel?!! don't tell me you do,cause no one had done so! fuck off all! out of my life. one day when i die,i swear i'll come back for you all. trying to break my friendship again and again. so what even if it's something that no one had expected? do i deserve this or what. what wrong have i done. people just don't care. even if i cry,who will bother to spare me some tissues! close friends,best friends. my ass! stop telling me that i look as if i have lots of friends. cause it's just not what you really think it is. let me go. why bother me. i'm not the only one involved. i never thought that i was the victim. tell me if i had not done enough. tell me what else do you people expect from me. life isn't as good as you think. a clown always smile before the rest,but who ever saw a clown cry in public. all humans have feelings. i'm not the exception. one day when i decided that i want to give up eveything,i'll do as i say. throw me into the sea and i won't struggle. cause i know,it's hopeless.
i just have to say it. cause i'm not comfortable with it.
So it has been 10 days away from my previous post. Many things happened. And I'm never _ _ _ _ _ . It's so hard to fake out a _ _ _ _ _ when actually i'm not _ _ _ _ _ _ _ deep in my heart . Why fucking make it so _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
Thinking that I know _ _ _ _ _ _ _ , but seriously you're so damn wrong. You think whatever i _ _ _ _ was _ _ _ _ , oh come on. Both are my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ,so _ _ _ do this? When I'm not allowed to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ to _ _ _ _ _ _ , Think about how i'm going to feel. You _ _ _ act as though i feel _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
Wait till one day,that my limit is up, I'll just turn and leave without even saying much.
Today went PICNIC at BOTANICAL GARDEN :D With Sr,Mandy,Mel and Ber <3 We went home to bathe first before meeting at TPY mrt station at 11.45am. Went to buy buy buy buy lots of tidbits to bring there like chips(: Took 105 all the way. NO SEATS ): Boo - Hoo! So it was like kind of tiring. LOL.
It was still a little wet when we reached,but it definitely didn't affect our high spirits! ^~^ Found a nice spot and ate lots of things(: Got lots of funny stuffs and photos! But I can't upload. It's freaking longgggggggggggggg~ Will post again maybe the next time? Haha. It's fun to get together with your girlfriends and have a small little picnic by the lake(: I had lots of fun! Thanks girls! :D Let's go again the next time! {;
Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: For when he is tried,he shall receive the crwon of life,which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.
Teenagers Prayer : Please,open up my eyes,dear Lord that I might clearly see. help me stand for what is right,bring out the best in me. Help me,Lord,to just say no when temptation comes my way, That I might keep my body clean. When my teenagers years are over, I know that I will see that life is lived it's best with you walking next to me.
Amen.
Monday, October 5, 2009
{'A true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else.' }
I'm going to Macau! :D Ohmygod! I can't wait for it. Heheh~ Not sure when flying,but going during December. That's for sure(:
Have being studying for the past few days. Except whenI'm home.
Hahah. I just can't concentrate at home. Hahah. There's no motivation,no help at home. So very hard to study at home. Hahah.
it's not that i don't care,it's not that i'm putting on a brave side. it's just that,what do you people want me to do? how am i suppose to react? fuck it. i didn't wanted any of this to happen. i hope i never had entered zhss. it just messed up my life. how irritating can that be. stop rubbing salt into my wound. even the super glue can break down too. who's going to be there? who else can i expect to be there?! who ever noticed those changes i made,who ever bother to care about how i feel?!! don't tell me you do,cause no one had done so! fuck off all! out of my life. one day when i die,i swear i'll come back for you all. trying to break my friendship again and again. so what even if it's something that no one had expected? do i deserve this or what. what wrong have i done. people just don't care. even if i cry,who will bother to spare me some tissues! close friends,best friends. my ass! stop telling me that i look as if i have lots of friends. cause it's just not what you really think it is. let me go. why bother me. i'm not the only one involved. i never thought that i was the victim. tell me if i had not done enough. tell me what else do you people expect from me. life isn't as good as you think. a clown always smile before the rest,but who ever saw a clown cry in public. all humans have feelings. i'm not the exception. one day when i decided that i want to give up eveything,i'll do as i say. throw me into the sea and i won't struggle. cause i know,it's hopeless.
i just have to say it. cause i'm not comfortable with it.
So it has been 10 days away from my previous post. Many things happened. And I'm never _ _ _ _ _ . It's so hard to fake out a _ _ _ _ _ when actually i'm not _ _ _ _ _ _ _ deep in my heart . Why fucking make it so _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
Thinking that I know _ _ _ _ _ _ _ , but seriously you're so damn wrong. You think whatever i _ _ _ _ was _ _ _ _ , oh come on. Both are my _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ,so _ _ _ do this? When I'm not allowed to _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ to _ _ _ _ _ _ , Think about how i'm going to feel. You _ _ _ act as though i feel _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .
Wait till one day,that my limit is up, I'll just turn and leave without even saying much.
Today went PICNIC at BOTANICAL GARDEN :D With Sr,Mandy,Mel and Ber <3 We went home to bathe first before meeting at TPY mrt station at 11.45am. Went to buy buy buy buy lots of tidbits to bring there like chips(: Took 105 all the way. NO SEATS ): Boo - Hoo! So it was like kind of tiring. LOL.
It was still a little wet when we reached,but it definitely didn't affect our high spirits! ^~^ Found a nice spot and ate lots of things(: Got lots of funny stuffs and photos! But I can't upload. It's freaking longgggggggggggggg~ Will post again maybe the next time? Haha. It's fun to get together with your girlfriends and have a small little picnic by the lake(: I had lots of fun! Thanks girls! :D Let's go again the next time! {;
Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: For when he is tried,he shall receive the crwon of life,which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.
Teenagers Prayer : Please,open up my eyes,dear Lord that I might clearly see. help me stand for what is right,bring out the best in me. Help me,Lord,to just say no when temptation comes my way, That I might keep my body clean. When my teenagers years are over, I know that I will see that life is lived it's best with you walking next to me.
Amen.
Monday, October 5, 2009
{ 'A true friend is someone who is there for you when he'd rather be anywhere else.' }
I'm going to Macau! :D Ohmygod! I can't wait for it. Heheh~ Not sure when flying,but going during December. That's for sure(:
Have being studying for the past few days. Except whenI'm home.
Hahah. I just can't concentrate at home. Hahah. There's no motivation,no help at home. So very hard to study at home. Hahah.
Who knows what will happen in the future?
Maybe I could become the next top model or actress.
I dream, and the sky is the limit.
Slow down and look around when you're chasing after your dream.
It might just be around you♥
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